Tatted and Unapologetic

I spent a lot of time typing out a post for this as there are so many directions I could’ve taken the conversation, but this is what I landed on. I do not want to allow the potential judgement, disapproval, and negative opinions to taint something so magical, integral, beautiful and transcendant in my journey. So I’ll tell my story with complete abandon to that soul sucking negativity — as my story is one of hope, goodness, delight, and triumph.

I have several tattoos and plans to get several more. Each one is a testament to different chapters of my life. Some are riddled with pain, suffering, self doubt, and shame. The tattoo itself symbolizes that time, those feelings, and better yet — it’s a representation of the treasure I found in those times. The treasure of true growth. Having found light in the darkness. Having learned from those times and having put my knew knowledge into action. Manifesting wisdom and transcendency in my life.

Some tattoos are more lighthearted. Symbols of sweet memories, fun, spice, and friendship. Reminders that even in all the bad there is still so much good right in front of me just waiting to be seen and appreciated. Reminders that yes, life Is tough and sometimes unfair but that I’m not alone and there is still much fun to be had! So much life left to be lived to the fullest. Reminders to laugh and not to take everything so seriously 100% of the time.

The tattoos I got yesterday were a mixture of those two scenarios. Remembering pain but having found such profound hope within that pain. Feeling fun and remembering a childhood memory that is both very sweet to me and also has somewhat of a bitter aftertaste. What can I say? I’m complicated!

My tattoos mean a lot to me and I want to share that in hopes that sharing my story can be therapeutic for me and can also reach someone else and let them know they’re not alone. That it’s ok to be disapproved of and misunderstood. If you are proud of who you’ve been, who you are, and the work you’re putting in to who you’re becoming you don’t need those outside opinions that never serve to encourage you anyways.

So, I have decided that I am going to do a tattoo tour video and put it up on my YouTube channel in the coming few months despite my fears, and despite the disapproval of a few people very important to me. This is me taking the first step into true growth in this part of me and to becoming who I want to be. Who God designed me to be. Unashamed, unapologetic, and unwavering in my joy and conviction on the matter.

So here's a note to you my lovely Saint: whatever it may be in your life that lights you up, ask yourself why the thought of criticism dims that light. Why does the thought of a strangers' disapproval stop you from sharing your story? Why do the negative narratives of people you consider close to you stop you from expressing your highest self? After all, if those people truly love you, they'll accept that part of you. And maybe the most important question to ask is, " How do those negative narratives, unkind opinions, harsh criticisms, and disapproval serve you, the woman you're becoming, and the life you're leading and want to lead? Do yourself, your growth, your loved ones, and your life a favor and get to the bottom of those questions.

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as always, stay spicy, stay wild, and be kind, until next time <3